Throwback Thursday - Twee through the years

Inspired by the spate of first profile pictures and Throwback Thursdays I thought I would share with you a quick peek at me through the years, if it seems a bit narcissistic please feel free to skip.  But here we go.

In the first pic I am probably about 12 so it is 1987, I am wearing the stonewash denim blouson style denim jacket so popular of the time with a very white T shirt I obviously hadn't eaten else it would probably be food splattered with some kind of print skirt.  Although I look happy I was probably riddled with insecurity and felt very fat.  I am sporting my first perm others came they weren't as successful.

In the second picture I am 20 I am obsessed with Drew Barrymore and Pulp and try an look like Drew, although I am a size 16 with a 28 inch waist I always feel fat.  However, this is the first time in my life I realise that boys like me and I exploit this as it makes me feel pretty.

This picture is from early 2003 I have just got married, I never wear anything but trousers or jeans and I feel fat most of the time.  I have just put on about 2 stone and although fatter squeeze myself into whatever fits in Dorothy Perkins and Debenhams.  I am still loving a denim jacket too.

The final picture is my fist profile picture I hated it at the time and thought my face looked huge but I never had pictures taken as I hated them so much so there weren't many to choose from, so this one it was.

The next picture is my first short haircut in 2009 I felt really pretty for the first time in a while and I had just lost about 2 stone that year and it was quite a good period for me in my life.

This is New Year 2011 and that is my first print dress which has become my personal brand really, I am getting more into a retro look.

This is July of 2012 I am again wearing a print dress my Limb fishing girls one, I am a few months away from reading my first plus size blogs but I am getting into my own personal style a bit more and I think it was about this time I decided I would stop dieting.  It was a fun night but I know my mind set hadn't changed that much as I remember seeing the pictures and thinking: "oh I look fat."

My final pic is New Year 2014 I am wearing my first and probably favourite print dress again and I feel happy and pretty through blogging I don't hate having my picture taken any more and I am not as preoccupied with if I look fat, cos well I am fat and that is okay.

On New Years Day

So as I may have mentioned in earlier posts me and The Hub are Carers which means we work holidays and the like this year I worked Christmas and Boxing Day and The Hub worked New Years Eve and New Years Day, so New year was a bit of a wash out and as the bells chimed and the fireworks went off, freaking the dog out we were tucked up in bed.  So we decided when he finished on New Year's Day at 9 we would have a New Years Eve/Day Party for two and watch the Hootenanny and have some drinks.

So I set up the bar for his return and ordered in a Chinese and soon I was sipping out of my new Sailor Jerry Glass, a final treat for me in the sale.  Isn't it pretty I love old school tattoos so this glass is very me.

Now what did I wear for this evening - It had to be probably my favourite ever dress, this was the dress I lusted after for a year and scoured E bay for one in my size, until the Hub who I must say is less careful with money than me, sick of me pouring over the Get Cutie webpage said: "Just buy it!"

This started my love affair with print dresses but I think this one is still my favourite, so I am not going to apologise if you have seen this dress before.

 I love the little cap sleeved and the way they bounce and the forgiving Empire line cut even if it is a little more booby than I usually go.  Unfortunately Get Cutie don't do the Cap sleeve in short any more but if you are after an investment (cos they ain't cheap) print dress I highly recommend

See what I mean about the boobs

. Keeping with the Woodland Gnome theme I teamed it with my Hairy Growler Hedgehog necklace and my Mario style Mushroom earrings from the Chinatown Market.  I think you can just see them, I did take a close up but it just looks weird, so this is the best I can do.

 I kept the face simple with black liner and MUA Lip velvet in Criminal which I am loving although a nice red might have looked better in honesty.

For the shoes I just wore my trusty Black patent schoolgirl style flats from Topshop.

We ate, drank, chatted and generally had an ace time and I felt like a champ so slipped into my new PJ's which I got for Christmas but had saved for the New Year, as honestly I spend half my life in PJ's.

I'm not sure all those hipsters from the mid 90's will be thrilled that you can get Paul Frank in Primarkbut I am!  I am also proud of these photos as usually anything with that much of VBO like that would not make the cut but I think I am getting better at embracing my body.

Any way It was a bloomin lush night as I don't get loads with The Hub where it is just us and what ever you did I hope it was splendid.

#You Are Fab

How are you feeling?  I have felt better and whilst laying in my pit of pain I have been indulging and reading blogs and came across this fabulous gem of a idea from Slink Magazine and the blogger Kate London-James to combat the rather revolting day designated by a most charmless sounding bloke called Steve Miller who has decided the 7th of January should be tell a friend they are fat day, just in case they were blissfully unaware.  Their idea is to spread some positivity and Tell a Friend they are fab instead.

So on the 7th expect some little love bombs from me and maybe a list of my most fabest on here, cos quite frankly in the most depressing month of the year which has I believe the highest suicides, who needs to be giving people mean spirited comments disguised as concern.

Because all shape bodies can be good and what people do with them is their concern not their friends and quite frankly from personal experience I don't want to hate my body and battle with it and wait to reach some kind of ideal to start living life - so this January I will be dedicating it to living my life with gusto and telling all my fabulous and inspiring friends how fab they are to try and combat all the body shaming that goes on in January.

To read about the campaign in a more eloquent manner read here