Accepting what we don't want to accept

In a departure from my usual postings of dresses and beachey themed gardens, I thought I would explain my recent silence.  Firstly my Nanny, died and there was funerals to attend and all that which was sad.  Then I heard the devastating news, Papa Dave's Cancer has returned.
Four and a half years ago my Dad (Known to me as Papa Dave) was diagnosed as having Mesothelioma (asbestos cancer) luckily for us the fantastic Dr's at Morriston Hospital, did radical surgery, removing one of his lungs, the chest lining, 75% of his diaphragm and a little bit of his heart membrane.  This has not been with knock on effects on his health but I have had my Dad.  Now I know in my hear of hearts that it was probably going to come back but it was still a punch in the stomach.
Dr Wonder Woman as my Dad calls her says it is treatable but not curable.  I have to admit I don't know what this means in terms of time, but it makes it more real that one day me and my Dad will no longer bounce round the room to Mr Blue Sky, that we will never go on a holiday together again, or eat elaborate feasts, wind my Mum up, that one day the funeral plans we make together on the phone in a jokey manner will be real and the only place I will get to talk to my Dad is in my head.

However I accept this as I know that one day we all will die it is an inevitable, a non-negotiable fact!  Just like I accept that my Dad will not try any of the alternative treatments, that I tell him about, that I will be sad but one day I will have to read his eulogy (yep, pops has demanded that I put my degree to some use)
So I focus on enjoying the time we have together, being a support and when he goes I know he will have a kick ass celebration of all things Dave, with hats, cheese, cigars, whiskey and the best decorated cardboard coffin you did ever see because we planned it.
As my friend Lisa Clark said on today on her all kinds of inspiring blog Sassyology: "Life is brilliant, but really shitty stuff has, is, and will still happen." and my way of looking at it is I can waste my energy being angry with the world but it isn't gonna change the facts and if I accept this I can use my energy positively to make a difference here and now!

Dreaming of Pretty Dresses

Twee loves an excuse to dress up, in the words of Saint Audrey: "I believe in manicures. I believe in overdressing. I believe in primping at leisure and wearing lipstick. I believe in pink. I believe happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day, and... I believe in miracles." (okay struggle a tad with miracles, but I definitely believe in magic, Oh yes sir!)  

My next known excuse to dress up is one of my besties Emma's wedding!  I met Emma some years ago when she was going out with a friend of mine, this friend has faded away, but Emma has stayed and she is marrying lovely Paul, and I can't wait to share their special day and not just because it is an excuse to primp to the max!!!!

I had my hat set at this remarkable Vivien of Holloway dress, worn here by the fabulous Anna Fur Laxis:

However, disaster struck, this marvellous dress is sold out and there are no plans I discovered to restock until Halloween time!!! (Could you take it off your website please it is taunting me, giggling saying you will never own me over and over, and I can't bear it)

So I could go Vivien of Holloway in a different print I was thinking:

This beauty has cupcakes on it and comes in at £79.00.

Or I am a BIG, MASSIVE, Get Cutie Fan and I do covet their Starlett Dress:

However, story of my life the print shown Grizzly Cliffs is sold out, so I was thinking:

This fabric is Majestic Wings, unfortunately the Starlett Dress retails at a jaw dropping (for me) £155.00, but I do have another one of their dresses (short cap sleeve in Gnome print) that I live and die in, to the point where I have to state when I see people:  "I do own other clothes, honest!"

Or Hell Bunny have some rather spectacular dresses in their new (I think) plus size range, as my darlings I have not got Saint Audrey's gamine figure but rather more Va Va Voom think Saint Elizabeth in the ice cream years (Vanilla Bean with Hershey's chocolate syrup was allegedly her poison)

So here is the Hell Bunny Dress I am thinking of:

It is their Hawaii Dress and features flowers, butterflies and pin up girls cavorting, it is stocked at Soho's and costs about £49.99 in my size.  They also do a really nice Zombie print comic strip one, but maybe not for a wedding?

And lastly there is E bay, it is a great source of cheaper dresses and I have found these beauties hiding out there, on dress190:

They both cost about £30.00.

So dearest readers some feedback would be appreciated, then we can talk shoes and accessories, oh yes......

Taming the Jungle

Here is a little secret despite my aspirations to be a domestic Goddess, who trots about in her immaculate house with homemade goodies that I eat with friends in my bijou garden.  Twee is a domestic slut of epic proportions and the garden well if it had cars on bricks and used white goods as its garden ornaments it wouldn't look out of place!
I am far too ashamed to show a picture of my actual garden, but think:

So me thinks a project is in order, I am thinking of a seasidey theme with pebbles so I can get rid of this pesky greenery and some pots for colour, and of course accessories to dress.

Inspiration has come from Betty Bee on her wonderful blog  talesfrombettybeetowers.blogspot.com She has an amazing garden and beautiful things in it!  So my inspiration is:

The Candy colours of beach huts and the beach,

Maybe with a dash of vintage:

All I can think is I have a long way to go but I will dear reader (empty swirling internet cloud) keep you posted.